Four Months

Today is 4 months exactly since my Acoustic Neuroma removal surgery and the last several months have taught me a lot. I’ve visited places in me that I had no idea existed. Some of those places have been good and some I hope never to revisit. I’ve faced fears over being rejected because of my appearance, fears of failure as a wife and a mother, and fears that the things I once considered strengths are gone forever. I’ve had to contend in prayer for joy and forced to receive the words from those around me as valid. I’ve had to tell the part of me that wants to wallow to line up with the truth that I am walking in and towards 100% recovery. I’m not saying that I am proficient in all of these areas all of the time, but I know that while God didn’t allow me to get sick, he is inviting me through this experience to find Him and find truth in a deeper way than ever before. My face hasn’t started moving yet but I have definitely improved … I can’t wait to give that update! James 1:4 says, “4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” I know this journey is giving me something. At the end it WILL give me a fully functioning face … But in the meantime it’s giving me the chance to learn about myself and the true character of God, and for that I’m grateful.

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